Thanks for the Roses…
Ah! Here you come again to visit me
Same as yesterday, same as the day before
Same as every day!
And you know?
Even so I feel like I haven’t seen you
Like we haven’t talked in a long time
Like you are so far away…
You always ask me the same thing
Why? Why do you do it?
I told you yesterday and I’ll tell you the same today
The story won’t change!
And you look at me but you don’t seem to listen
I try to explain it to you every day
But you never understand!
You know?
In your face there’s more pain than confusion
You speak to me as if I had done something to you
But I don’t remember hurting you… not like this…
Every day my memory fades
Every day it’s harder for me to remember what we did together
What I did alone
Ah!! And there come the “whys” again
I told you already! I will keep telling you the same!
What do you want me to answer you,
If I already told you?
Why do you ignore me?
Don’t you see?
Why do you look down and not at me?
Now you’re acting strange
Now you kneel…
Before me…!!
But that is not all
Now you are crying
And your hands cover your face
What are you doing?
You are confusing me…
You reproach me so many things
Yet you…
You ask for forgiveness…
Why are you doing this? I don’t understand!
And every day you do the same thing
You scream, you say:
“Why!!!!???”
Even though I’ve told you so many times
But now…
Now that you start talking about us
And then about me
About how much I changed
About how I used to be
And how you used to love me
I begin to remember
Now loneliness starts flooding me
Memories come slowly back to me
And now everything is darkness
I hear their voices again
The ones that surround me
They whisper in my ears
The ones who were also forgotten
The ones that hide in the night
Running away from the light
They are blaming me of something…
They repeat what I did in my life
And my heart can’t stand it anymore
Because the pain slowly consumes me
Those memories hurt
Every second more…
Now I feel empty
That hole inside of me
Gets bigger… and bigger…
Now I want to cry beside you
I try to hug you…
But I can’t reach you
Those images dwelling in my mind won’t go away
A terrible sensation takes over me
Then you raise your head
And I lower mine
I threw my life away, wasted it
I feel I want to hide…
Because now I remember everything…
I comitted suicide…